Winding Down

The days of 'Treadwell, Party of 4' are winding down and it is rather bittersweet for me.  While I am over-the-moon excited, grateful and blessed to be enlarging our tent, there is a part of me that is clinging to life as we now know it.

I keep envisioning us on cruise-control...every mile ahead getting smoother and passing quicker....until, alas, we are there and the road behind us has become a distant memory.  A road that I am sure we will retrace again...in a different season, with a different mindset and with different passengers (and, hopefully, in a different car), but ultimately, EVERYTHING. WILL. BE. DIFFERENT.  And oh, the thought of that road becoming a memory stirs up a big mess of emotions inside this pregnant momma that I just can't seem to handle these days.  Life with the girls is so full, so dramatic, so sweet and so...ours.  What will our life look like 6 weeks from now?  It's such a surreal thing to know our baby is just weeks away and tucked closer to me than any other and yet this baby is such a mystery...such a stranger in a sense.  Who are "we" becoming?  And, as I said before, I CANNOT wait to meet our baby and welcome him/her with the widest, most open arms, but for the moment, for the next 6 weeks, I want to soak THIS life up...

THIS life...

Amelia's first days of VBS...

Daddy's 31st bday...

The beach with 2...

  

Doctor visits with mom...

Girl's first night sharing a room (and a bed)... Amelia swimming... Tillie pottying... Babe-in-soups (aka "Bathing Suits") and lasterday (aka "yesterday")... tea parties... bows...and on and on!  I just don't want to forget a thing of THIS life as we know it.  

Change is good, I know.  The only thing certain in life is change!  Tomorrow will be a different day...different obstacles, different joys, different weather.  And I will embrace tomorrow and the path the Lord sets before us.  But today...today is here and now, the only moment I know and the only one I have for certain.  Today I cling to US...to life as we know it...and trust that God will prepare my heart these next 6 weeks to multiply its love and increase its borders.